Been wondering thru the streets of tamp. Shops been set up to commemorate Valentine's but somehow...it just seems to be so quiet...not many ppl holding hands....hiaz....or maybe its just me?

Been having artistic depression really. Can't find a way to express myself...my little book has been filled with doodles but its just not enough. Singing can't even heal this depression. No song can really make me sing to it anymore....Hiaz!!! AHH!!!

Class has been planning a chalet recently. Seems like quite a fun thing. But price so ex...T.T...plus...nothing to do much there also...up to me and Daph to make the place more interesting...>.<..hiaz..exams are coming too...T.T the tears just cant stop now.

Maybe I should try my hand at dancing...lol....

In commenmoration for Saint Valentine's Day, I have decided to create a Valentine's theme blog so that nobody can say Ras is a miserable and grouchy person abt Valentine's day. Plus, its nice to celebrate it no? Expensive chocolates and flowers every you go. Everything is in pink (Yay!) and everywhere you go, you see couples holding hands, making out in every corner you turn. Your void deck suddenly becomes a very sleazy and squeezy place to get to your doorstep. And the girls you hate suddenly calls you or corners you to show you the bouquet her new bf just got her or that new jewellery. Yup people, its Valentine's Day!!! T.T

Now people, here is the history of Saint Valentine's Day:

At that time the Roman Emperor Claudius-II had issued an edict forbidding marriage. As he felt that married men were more emotionally attached to their families, and thus, will not make good soldiers. He believed it made the men weak. So to assure quality soldiers, he banned marriage.

Saint Valentine (an actual priest) realized the injustice of the decree. Seeing the trauma of young lovers, he met them in a secret place, and joined them in the sacrament of matrimony. He defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. But Claudius soon learned of this "friend of lovers," and had him arrested.

While Valentine was in prison awaiting his fate, he came in contact with his jailor, Asterius. The jailor had a blind daughter. Asterius requested him to heal his daughter. The Catholic legend has it that through the vehicle of his strong faith he miraculously restored the sight of Asterius' daughter and just before his execution, he asked for a pen and paper from his jailor, and signed a farewell message to her "From Your Valentine," a phrase that lived ever after.

Romantic no? But alas poor Saint Valentine was executed on 14th Feb in 270 AD and is a well celebrated holiday in many European nations. But of course no one knows if this legend is true, but he really existed. Another legend foretold that he was actually a broken-hearted man rejected by his lover so one day, he plunged a knife to his chest and cut out his heart and than gave it to his lover with his cold dying hands. Thats why heart shaped cards are given to show the other lover of the suffering and overwhelming passion that is exprienced on this side.

Hiaz...been a lonely Valentine's Day for the past 19 years T.T...hopefully this time round, I won't be forced to watch chick flick reruns on the tele again. Prince Charming where are you?!!!

Btw, did you know that all the fairytales we have in our heads were written by men? Cinderella, Snow White and Sleeping Beauty. Its kinda ironic cause these fantasies were written by men and yet somehow, women believe that one day such imaginary guys would come forth. Its practically like the author writing abt a guy he wished he could be and girls actually believing that such a guy exists. Its close to impossible no?

But for whatever reason, I swear never to love for the wrong reasons. Not out of loneliness, not out of pity and certainly not out of force(treason). To love someone must be a love that is genuine and from the heart. No matter how evil or cruel anyone may be, everyone still deserves true love. So I'll wait for this imaginary prince charming. ^^ I know that one day we'll find each other but not while I'm sitting in my castle and mopping. I'll make sure I live my life out proper because that is what I deserve as well ^^.

Happy Valentine's Day!

I wanna eat cookies as cute as these!!! AHH!!

Chocolates as cute as these toooo!!! T.T

Lol...yesteray all us went out to PizzaHut for lunch.
Guys: Jeremy, Wee Chang, Terrence, Justin and Yan Lin
Girls: Joanna, Fadilah and Me^^
Couldn't Take all their pics though.



























Lol...was quite funny when you're dining with them. Some dunno how to effectively use the cheese dispenser, some were talking about songs but ALL were making fun of Justin. Haha...poor guy, lucky he can handle it. I think I would have cried by then...haha..thickskin?

What was funny was when he said he wanted to buy the Garnier Roll it. First time I hear that a guy wants to buy it. Sad thing was that I finally learn that I have eyebags too!!! Been researching formulas on preventing it last night =.=...so anyway, after hunting for it. Wee Chang and Jeremy left...thats where the fun stuff begins!

Finally decided to go to arcade to play games at TM...then end up we all play separate things. Played Time Crisis with Fadilah. Haha...both of us ended up dying at the same time. Haha...her accruracy not bad sia. Justin and Yan Lin went to play basketball. Lol..quite interesting...they also end up same scores. But Joanna and Terrence never play!!! They just watch onli T.T.

Anyway...the funniest part of this whole outing was when one crazy zabor (me) wanted to pay ParaPara Dance Mania..the floor version. Haha...end up play all C or D....quite pathetic...than Justin was like trying out the same moves with me. He also play till like very happy...Than ask him want play, he say dun wan. Ok lor...than I tried the next door one, the hands version. Wah! I played till like super PS! Can't dance like the model inside la...than dunno why so many rounds! Finally the last one, we all manage to persuade Justin to try. Lol...have a video of him trying. Super funny la...Willing to sell it for 20cents!! Lol

Finally, the hands version gave Justin the urge to dance the floor one. SO end up we play 2 rounds. But he's much better at it leh...T.T...lol...must be quite a sight. One barefooted girl dancing and one wide eyed guy keep saying ehh? everytime he misses. Hahahahaha....

In the end, after games went to food court to eat my dinner and Justin's teabreak. Where all his food go sia? Lol. End up, the topic moves on to ppl eating their own shit. Cuzed quite a big Wooha sia. Ends up the conclusion is that Justin enjoys eating his own...$%&@. Super gross when you're eating dry Beef noodles. Finally all went home while I went back to Choir.

After choir, when I missed my 23, I decided to walk home. Managed to take photo of the lantern deco at the Prime Market there. Was listening to Christian Bautista while walkin home. Super bad choice...was remembering all the bad memories. Practically in tears by the time I reached my old sec school..




Thats where I came up with the sms and sent it to everyone I held dear. And pray it comes true too.



Love is simple, Love is kind
Love is blind, but that's just fine.

In my world of darkness and endless time,
I have one simple wish.
And that is for all the love any of us have given,
To be given back by that one person we hold so dear


Lol...copyrighted by Ras

Yay! Finally took alot of pictures today! Of myself of course and also my friends ^^ Hehe. Not easy to upload though >.< Yay!






Omelette Rice!












Piggy Pciture^^









I heard that this is normal kitty behavior T.T









After my big bite ^^










Kinda reminds me of jail...was during Comm skills












Wee Chang and friends!













Joanna! Studying hard!!!











Yan Lin!











Hard workers ^^











Kinda looks like a lake right?!! Its actually just my school carpark lot ^^














Shar Shar!!











Hehe...they didnt know!












I kinda look like some nerdy Grandma!!! =X










Chris,JOr,Aaron and Hazel ^^

In case any of you are thinking..."Am I the girl that Ras saw??" Well let me tell you this, if your viewing my blog, it can't be you. Cuz I have no idea who that girl is. I think she is a senior though...=.=...kholed eyes and blended that half her lids were black....nice when your at the clubs or on a date but for school at 11am in the morn.....and some girls even pack on every product they have in their drawers.

Primer + Foundation + Concealer + Powder/foundation type = cake!

Quite pissed these couple of days. Keep bumping into crappy ppl everywhere I go and having to endure their comments and talk. If I wasn't in living in this concrete jungle, I would so pounce on you right now and tear your eyes out. ROAR!

Hmmm...ask me this question 2 years ago and I would have said plastic surgery is for ppl who has been disfigured and anyone using it would be a stupid bimbo. Well, 2 years down the road my opinion has changed.


Plastic surgery, the latest craze in Singapore and everywhere else around the world. A few years ago, make up was the latest craze. But now Botox and implants are the in-things. Hey don't get me wrong, I'm all up for it in fact. If they are what you need to feel good, go ahead. I've been considering it myself too. But than it brings abt a whole new issue.


Addiction.


Alot of young girls have been brainwashed by tv and magazines that ppl with perfect skin and features do exist. Well some of them do, but mostly, its just nothing but camera tricks and software enhancing.=.=" took me recently to realise something called photoshop....i know...stupid me...


It may sound like I'm exaggerating when I say this but, plastic surgery has been known to go overboard. Not in Singapore right now, but in other countries, its becoming a growing addiction. The perfect face and body is the impossible dream women all over the world are chasing. My guess is that it's gonna happen real soon in Singapore.


Just the other day, I was reading ads from plastic surgeons abt who has done what and how she is right now. Wow...did you know that Botox helps to make your jaw smaller and gives you better skin? Sounds cool right, yeah...apparently, you need to go for semi-annual touch up if you wanna maintain that nice slender face. And not for a cheap price too. I really hope that ppl who are considering these expensive routes to beauty to consider what they really want and consider the price to pay. That includes me too...>.<

Saw some really pretty girls in TP today too...except for one thing...they'll all just a few lipsticks away from being the cast in a wayang show. My god...its like 1inch of powder on their face and practically a whole pencil of kohl on their eyes. Its like HELLO!!! you guys are naturally pretty on your own. Why do you need so much makeup? Honestly...who the hell taught them to put make up?

You don't need to put all your makeup products on in order for it to be called make up. That was in the past where make up was expensive. Now!, the latest trend is bare minimum. Less is more. More does not = to pretty or beautiful. Yeah...ppl stare...but not for the right reasons. Clubbing make up is not meant for day makeup. Its like staring at a flower that has so much fertiliser and pesticide on it. More do not equal nice!!!

Hmm...been feeling so depressed lately. Just contracted a flu and its been nothing but tissues flooding my house. Been taking pills the size of peas to the size of my thumbnail. But whatever...life has been the same. Just very emo the past few days. Even took an emo picture...lol...hopefully things would look up soon ^^